Surprise surprise, here I am with yet another blog.
Idk I guess I just wanted somewhere to pour my feelings out and thought why not my personal blog lolsz. So here I go.
Recently I’ve been feeling so very lost. I’m not quite sure what I want to do with my life however, I know where I want to be. Successful.
My future somehow changes every day that goes by, so the things I wanted last week I may not find it necessary in my future anymore.
This is how I imagined my future just a month ago: I lived in an apartment in Arizona where I had herbs all in my kitchen/living room area with windows shining bright light into my home. I lived by myself and practiced yoga, ate healthy, and studied life, traveling the world from time to time and writing very beautiful blog post about my favorite subjects, life, love, sex, travel and personal experience/growth.
However I now also feel like being a party girl, who dresses fashionably, and knows everyone and everything and is the life of the party. I live in the city a small apartment with an amazing view, and come home either drunk or high every night. Worked a regular job in the day and a party goer at night.
I know the latter is basically impossible lol. I’m way too antisocial for that, and I’m mostly the awkward one of the party, the one who sits in the corner and waits to be spoken to.
I feel so lost and confused. I have no idea what type of path I want to take in life. I know that my blog is something I’ll never give up but I’m not sure wtf to do lmaoo. I used to know where I was going but now I just feel like I’m living with no goals and it’s frustrating especially when so many people doubt my success.
I know I’ll figure it out, I always do. Lucky I’m not depressed that would only make things worst. Hehe…
Thanks for reading <3